Lover: Bebe, I don't think I can sleep.
Me: Why, bebelove?
Lover: I don't know. I need your hug.
Me: Hahaha. you're lucky that you're pogee. Come here bebe.
- minutes later. -
Lover: *snores*
Me: Bebekoy?
Lover: *snores*
Me: Hahaha.Your snores are cute. I love watching you sleep. I really love you. I really do. Sometimes I might show that I don't give a fuck. But I do. I never want to lose you. I know it's cheesy, but this is how I feel. You are the answer to my prayers, Bebe. This is REAL. I know I'm not the best thing out there, but I'm trying to be one of your best ever. Thank you bebelove, thank you for choosing a messed up girl like me to be your girlfriend. Thank you for being mine. I honestly can't see myself with anyone else but you. I know I say 'I love you too' many times, but each time I say it, my feeling grows more and more for you. Thanks for listening, bebekoy. I wont be tired of loving you. I love you till life ever after. I won't let the bed bugs bite you. Goodnight, my love,sweet dreams.

I was afraid to be forgotten, yeah, that's really what it was. I was afraid to be unwanted and not needed, but then as it turned out over time, I was right. I faced my fears, my very own convictions and pushed through with my aspirations; the only people who never left are those whom I learned to treasure the most and that fact made me realize one very important lesson:

Life will always be in black and white, but to have true friends around you who will always be there and will never even think of leaving you is another story so as to say. They don't paint your world with all these magnificent colors; they are the colors and you're still the painter of your life; however you use them, mix them up and build greater horizons is entirely up to you.

People change and that's all to it. Colors, if not pure and true will always fade away with time.

I have been meaning to write this list for a couple of weeks now, hoping for some help from the boyfriend (Lord knows I find excuses for my flaws that I am aware of)
So here.

1. I am incredibly needy and clingy, like Bella Cullen. Oh yes, I just compared myself to one of the most annoying characters to have ever been written. It’s all true, too.

2. I smoke and drink a lot and it’s going to be a hard habit to quit (which I will get around to, eventually. I’ve managed to cut down smoking, though, so yay me). I say this because the boyfriend doesn’t smoke and only drinks occasionally. Haha! that's not true, he drinks a lot. If he didn’t love me, I’d say this would make me undateable to him hrhrhrhr.

3. I EAT A TON. This makes me less "desirable". It disappoints me big time. But IDC, like lover said, "It's okay as long as you manage to burn some fats.". See?

4. I laugh like crazy while slicin' and dicin' you with my sharp claws.

5. I'm gay and I have crazy friends.