Countdown to the Big Two-Three

So i am turning 23 tomorrow and I am feeling… the age.
Someone asked me "How old are you?" I answered and then she chided "When i was 23, i already had my first child."

I am old enough to have a baby this year.

("Uh-oh," my friend goes.)

I must admit: It’s a little frightening. For reasons I no longer remember that are too stupid and embarrassing to share. These are the unimportant things that send me into little fits of internal panic. How very unnecessary.

Now as much as I would like to expound on this fear and talk about my feelings! my emotions! mah h0pez & mah dreamz!, I’d rather take the ditzy route and list down a bunch of crap I feel I would need “to give meaning to my 23 years of existence”

The list (23 for 23):
1. Leica
2. Nikkor AF-S 500mm f/4G
3. A dog
4. Two or three (or more!) new pairs of shoes
5. Gummy bears
6. Mac Book
7. Car
8. Flowers
9. Chocolates and Cake!
10. Comforter
11. Kero Keropi
12. Long straight wig
13. Photo Studio
14. Plane ticket to Hongkong
15. Kitchen Showcase
16. Second Job
17. All songs of Maroon 5 in my ipad
18. BB cream
19. Fake lashes
20. BIG closet
21. Contact lenses in all shades
22. Collar necklace
23. My Johnloyd

Next year, I propose that I drink every day for the entire month of November.

1 comment:

  1. there's a lot of things to worry about in life like everyday we face them. It is something we confront and something we mus conquer---fear. When we want to achieve our wanted goals, we hurdle, stumble, trip, then we try to get up and there are times hat as we are pushing our toes up, our knees shake then we drop the second time. But as what they they, it's a matter of knowing exactly how strong you wanna get up rather than giving up. And you know what, this is what motivates be strong. That i wouldn't be living neither you or anyone else if it's not for the truth that we are strong in facing that life offers everyday. Knowing that we are breathing manifests the fact that we are strong and has been surviving life everyday. Your list of 23 stuffs are achievable. They are petty sort of things that we can obtain, though some of them require effort before to can get into possession because we need to work hard for them, and as you do, you realize that there are barriers along the way and we just can't help but ask why can't we just have them as we want. Then there comes the fear of something like not being able to obtain them. Nei, i have been asking myself questions a million of times now as i fear of losing you, yet i always turn down the idea because i keep believing that i love you so much in all ways. I breathe because of this truth, and i will, shall, should, must keep holding this truth inside my heart...that i love you.. you are my religion. Happy birthday.
    miss you.